Mind

For the first time I feel grateful for the things I've achieved in twenty years.

For the first time, I can shake hands with anyone I know will be there to hold it.

But for the first time, I feel like I'm losing my mind.

And for the first time, I feel like there's no way to change that.

Why am I so discredited?

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People tell me that I'm doing things the wrong way.

People judge more than their own trail.

Is it wrong to want to do the impossible?

I hope not.

Please, God, I hope not.

Life

I'm alone in a foreign country for 3 months now...

I don't have any friends, I don't have anyone to talk to in the end of the day.

I have to go to parks alone, go to art galleries alone, smoke alone.

I go to school and work, all day, everyday, the same.

The girl I love, loves another guy.

I think about her all day long, she's like art, with a heart, when I look at her it's like I'm admiring a painting.

Recently she moved to my class, I still don't know if this is a blessing or a nightmare.

I spend all morning looking at her, I try not to, but my eyes always find an excuse to look in her direction.

Life has been hard. Nights were spent crying.

I hope it gets better soon.